The Principal Responds...

I awoke Monday morning, glanced at my phone and still nothing.  I had been completely blown off by the Principal and I needed to get over it.  Truth is, all my anger had drained to the point where I felt empty.  Men simply did find me worthy enough to share their mediocre lives.  Time to embrace being a single lady for the rest of my days. Yes, I am 31 and I give up.

9:00am Principal:  Wow.  That's some interesting messaging.  Would have helped if I had read it yesterday rather than this morning.

Who the hell doesn't look at their phone for over 24 hours?  Who?  My 66 year old mother checks her IPhone regularly.  Did it not occur to him to contact me at all yesterday?

9:24am ME: That's it?

10:54am Principal:  Well I wanted to let you know that I had just read these given your assumption.  I think the fact that I'm being extremely cautious about you and I and feeling things out slowly is likely making it appear that I'm "not interested".

11:15am ME: Taking things slow is one thing.  Wondering if you're interested is another.

11:38am Principal:  I am interested but I'm moving at a snail's pace.  I didn't see a question asking me that only a revelation that you decided was the case.

Should I have been more direct?  Sure!  Have I always been the one who has to draw out how he feels about me?  Yes!  So forgive me if I just wanted to make a statement about how you happen to consistently come across.

11:47am ME:  It wasn't a question, it was a conclusion.  The lax communication was beginning to give me heart burn.

12:08pm Principal:  My apologies,  Not my intentions.

12:34pm ME:  It was a pointless text.

And no more from the Principal.  I hada fraction of a hope he would be waiting at my house when I drove home from work.  Or left flowers.  But I bet the thought never even crossed his mind.  He didn't bother to call either.

I drove over to Julies's where she made me dinner and discussed the many dysfunctions of men.  I just feel empty.  Even my ex-boyfriend who had once loved me couldn't get excited enough to be with me.  What hope would I ever have to find someone who does?  How could I be stupid enough to think the Principal would go out of his way to tell me he cares?

If this man can't even call me, I guess he can't really ever love me.